der rhythmus meines herzen

Ich höre Stille. Ich höre Frieden. Ich höre Gott.

Die vergeblichen Sorgen und die betäubende Angst - sie schlüpften einfach weg und 

genau in diesem Augenblick ließ ich los

ich ließ die Vergangenheit aus meinen Fingern zurück in die Erde fließen

ich fühle mich lebendig .

jetzt hab ich meine Balance gefunden.

egal, was die Zukunft bringt, oder wer in meinem Leben ist,

diese Balance wird immer da sein, weil ich Jetzt weiß,

dass ich keinem ein Stück von mir anbiete,

der mich weniger liebt, als ich mich selbst. 

ich weiß wie man vergisst, was andere um mich herum sagen

ich vertraue in den Rhythmus meines Herzens.

dieser Rhythmus wird mich niemals aus meinem Tritt bingen oder mich aus meiner Balance werfen ...

einen guten Jahreswechsel in die weibliche 13 :))

bilder von eventtemples.com und wingmakers.com

ende oktober vollmond

genau auf meinem mond im natal chart :)

und wie war dieser oktober gespickt mit neuem
das sich aus ganz verstecktem
weit weg gebanntem
neu generierte

der punkt in mir
in dem die essenz ruht
ist jetzt voll entwickelt

naja hatte sich einfach zurückgezogen
um den tiefen die möglichkeit zu geben
sich doch noch zu zeigen
und gehen zu dürfen
oder besser
kommen zu dürfen...


in  diesem punkt wohnen
frieden

kindliches "wild"sein
kindliche neugier
freiheit
und volles vertrauen

es ist
als lachte jede zelle 
in meinem körper

bei dem spiel
draußen
in der natur
bei dem spiel drinnen
in der imagination

rein

ein bisschen versteckt
und doch
in fülliger farbe :)

schicht für schicht
ebene für ebene

umhüllt in den "Daunen" der unendlichen ewigen Umarmung Gottes...

Maple Syrup/Baking Soda Trojan Horse - Germs consume sugar to generate energy and grow but it cannot live in an alkaline body. By taking 1-2 tsp of Maple Syrup/Baking Soda regularly, I can maintain oral pH around 7.4-7.8. This is the easiest way to boost pH in my body. If you have problems digesting food due to chemo and high pH, take some digestive enzymes and probiotics. The sugar in the maple

syrup is bounded with alkaline. If cancer cells or germs take in the sugar, the hidden alkaline will weaken or destroy it. Trader Joe’s organic grade B maple syrup 3 parts. Bob’s Red Mill baking soda 1 part (this is aluminum free unlike Arm & Hammer). Heat the maple syrup to a warm temperature to dissolve the baking soda (this need not be at a boil). Once warmed, stir in the baking soda for 5 minutes. Example: 90 tsp syrup, 30 tsp baking soda. Store this at room temperature. Make enough for 10 days, beyond which mold may grow. The syrup/bicarbonate complex is brought into cancer cells or candida where it alters pH to an unfavorable alkaline level. For cancer patients use 5-7 teaspoons per day divided. For candida or pH control use 3 teaspoons per day. Tasty alkalinization and good health.

Thanks Dr. Ng

oktober ...

After the struggle that was September, the small bumps in October's road will feel like practically nothing. Go ahead and exhale, for you can expect much smoother sailing throughout the coming month!

The celestial show begins on October 3, when Venus floats into Virgo. This altruistic match will encourage you to lend a helping hand; in fact, you won't feel completely fulfilled until you've dedicated time to someone in need.

Then, on October 5, Saturn swoops in with the month's biggest astrological news: This somber planet is about to move out of Libra to take up residence in dark, secretive Scorpio! Saturn has no time for frivolity or excess, so it will force you to cut anything unnecessary out of your life. And since Scorpio rules sexuality, intimate relationships, joint finances, and personal transformation, those are the exact areas where Saturn will turn its focus. This won't be the easiest of transits ... but after everything you went through last month, you'll be able to take whatever Saturn and Scorpio dish out with unwavering resolve.

Fortunately, October 7 sees Mars catapult into Sagittarius, adding further fuel to this Fire sign's outspokenness and indicating that it's time to stop talking and start doing! The very next day, Mars aligns itself with Neptune, making for an extra-glamorous October 8!

Things then slow down for a few days before October 15 comes along with a huge burst of energy in the form of three significant cosmic events! On this date, the Libra Sun partners with Jupiter to bring a fortuitous boost of morale. Meanwhile, the new Moon in Libra gives you an opportunity to start afresh with close relationships -- indeed, it's time to let bygones be bygones and move ahead. Finally, Mars and Uranus inspire grand ideas as they come together in a trine.

A roadblock of sorts will appear in the second half of the month as the Sun moves into Scorpio on October 23. In and of itself, this transit simply represents a change of focus. In this case, however, the Sun is activating the very same traits Saturn is trying to reign in. Adding to this tension, the Sun will butt heads with Saturn on October 25, leaving you feeling a bit downbeat and intensely secretive.

Thankfully, the month will go out on a high note as Mars swings opposite Jupiter on October 28. You'll enjoy an overabundance of confidence, allowing you to finally throw caution to the wind and bring one of your crazy dreams to life!

wut macht krank????

wirklich?

wenn wir sie gemäß unserer programmierung
hinunterschlucken
und irgendwo abspeichern

ja
dann brodelt sie
schon fast unbekannt
ja vergessen
vor sich hin

es entstehen irgendwo
rachegefühle
rache dafür
dass uns das leben unserer idee
mit der wir hierher gekommen sind
genommen wurde

und rachegefühle
die machen dann
schuldgefühle

es gibt ja für alles ein programm

dass wir uns schuldig fühlen
wenn wir rache wollen

ist klar

denn rache gehört nicht zu unserer idee von uns

aber

das große Geschenk des Ärgers (der Wut) ist
dass er/sie/es 
Muster aufbricht
in denen wir feststecken

wenn wir der wut ermöglichen
sich zu zeigen

nicht sie auf jemanden oder etwas richten

sondern sie einfach in unseren ganzen wesen fühlen

ihr ihre präsenz anerkennen

kann sie ihren lauf nehmen

so wie sie auftritt

dann stell dir und ihr die frage

warum kann ich jetzt sehen
was ich vorher nicht sehen konnte?

je beharrlicher hinterfragt 
desto mehr verborgene einsichten enthüllen sich

erhöhte wahrnehmung
bringt erhöhte energie
bringt erhöhte kraft

und das wiederum
erhöht den wunsch zu leben

der wunsch zu leben ist freude

der wunsch zu leben wiederum
wirft uns in die erforschung des lebens und des unbekannten

die unbekannten teile des lebens
sind die
die am meisten "fest" stecken
von all den teilen des existenz

und die noch nicht bearbeitet worden sind
in früheren zyklen der schöpfung

wut ist daher notwendig

als unterstützung beim aufbrechen der illusion 

von rache und schuld

wieder mal ist equi nox

equinox

sonne in waage

pluto und uranus quadrat

eventtemples.com

und jetzt?

ist schon aufgefallen

wieviele durchdreher es gibt?

jetzt gehts nochmal ans putzen

innen und außen

die wirkliche entscheidung für den eigenen weg

und achtsamkeit

gegenüber allem

was einem begegnet

hinter dem spiegel findest du die wahrheit

alles andere sind

illusionen illusionen

ausreden ausreden

wenn willst du damit überzeugen?

mich?

glaubst du das wirklich?

na dann

....

wissen ist schön

irgendwie ist das im englischen praktisch

knowledge

and knowing

das letztere ist es

das uns weiter "hilft"

und logik

hilft auch

nur lügen

die helfen nicht

geh geh geh

es ist soooo einfach

wenn du immer nur den schritt anschaust, der gerade dran ist

denn dann

ist genau in dem moment

wo du unterstützung brauchst

die unterstützung da

und der mut

und das wissen

um dich selbst

und du kommst dem ausführen deiner idee

immer näher

one love

all ways

always

the glamour :)))) of ...

children of the sun

purity of enotions
http://childrenofthesun.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=58:glamour&catid=39

MAJOR GLAMOURS OF THE SPIRITUAL PATH The Glamour of Self Identity  This is the major trigger for all other glamours and which creates the greatest separation between self and other, between the human and the divine. This is attachment to the formed human expression including its physical form, the bodily appearance, a held image, to emoting response and  with attachment to roles. The emotion of personal identity creates unending desires, cravings, fear, doubt, neurotic thought and a continuous wheel of large and small sufferings in all areas of life. The Glamour of Power This glamour is often unselfishly created during a time when one feels to be in great spiritual alignment while experiencing great openings and new abilities. There is emotional attachment to the sense of power that develops. There is then a growing tendency to call attention to ourselves, to the mission that we are carrying out, to the confidence that the Masters have in us, that our view is the best view. The Glamour of Materiality This is the attachment of emotion to outer forms and false appearances which creates desire for needless material possessions. It is the false perception of values which ignores true spiritual principles and our forward movement into selflessness as a group consciousness. The present world economic situation is a result of this particular glamour in which we all have contributed. The Glamour of Devotion This is one of the strongest glamours in the spiritually focused due to deep devotion and dedication to the spiritual path. The high level of devotion can innocently result in the formation of personal desires and glamorized ideals. There is great emotional attachment to a teaching, a concept, a vision, a view, a teacher, a Master, healing something, assisting the Earth, etc.. The glamour restricts the more expanded vision while closing us into a box of fantasy, personality longings, a long list of desires and to do's. While immersed in this glamour, it is impossible for divine messaging to be correctly interpreted or even to enter. The Glamour of Psychic Perception As a result of the quickening of planetary energies, many people are opening into the realm of extra sensory perception. This provides easier access into the colorful and inviting realm of the psychic world and the illusory astral plane. One thinks the incoming visions and messages are divine truth when, in fact, they are clothed with distortion. This occurs due to spiritual pride, zealous ambition and emoting attachment to the self identity and its abilities. The Glamour of the Spiritual Path  The Glamour of Destiny As a result of emotional attachment to one's Path, this glamour produces high aspirations but limiting vision, selfish interpretations and self centeredness due to the individualized focus versus true realization of group consciousness. This is also the attachment of emotion towards the belief that we have important work to do in the world, that we are special, the Christed ones, ascension's "first wavers", starseeds, etc.. There is much preoccupation with identity and an overemphasis of spiritual ambition. Fantasized realities can also result. The Glamour of Sentimentality This is the desire to emotionally be or react in a certain way. This is overemphasis of emotion placed upon a needed response from another in order to satisfy a desired level of personal comfort. This glamour attaches to the personalities of others. There is emotional reaction to another's emotional response. It is also the strong emotional desire to love and to be loved on the human level. (Definitely a most challenging one to overcome in the process of personality-Soul fusion.) The Glamour of Speculative Belief This is the formation of held concepts, beliefs and resulting emotional patterns based upon the attachment to information that is not derived from one's own illuminated consciousness. The glamour produces conditioned belief through the blind acceptance of information from someone else's principles, theories and assumptions or from messaging that is based on a guess, a possibility, a potential, a prophecy or ancient claim, etc.. The Glamour of the Messiah Complex This is attaching emotion to the role of being a savior and the illusion of having to take on the suffering for others. This is a very common glamour experienced by teachers and healers. The Glamour of Self Importance This glamour produces an overemphasis towards a sense of duty or responsibility. There is hurriedness, impatience and always something to do, create, plan. Self centered tendencies create continuous desires to share the opinion, the experience, the creativity, the message. There is much self reference and talk, "my project", "my vision", "my view", "my experience".